When I decided it was time to start my weight loss journey, I never in a million years considered the psychological aspect of it. I mean, not just finding your motivation and determination, something deeper than that. For instance, getting dressed. I am at a point now, where getting dressed in the morning at a lower weight is more difficult than when I was heavier. Why? Well for one thing, I want to show off my new (and tighter) figure. I am working hard people, I deserve it! Second, my clothes look frumpy on me, they are floating in the wrong ways and are frankly, unflattering. These are “big people” clothes meant to hide your soft parts. That’s not the person I am today or will be tomorrow. But the real question is…what shall I wear?
Easy solution- Shopping! Something I am very good at, by the way.
So, I went shopping the other day, on a mission to find myself a new pencil skirt for work. I want a white skirt with a bright floral print. I did my typical rounds and visited the stores I often buy from. Wait a minute, I am now 2 sizes smaller, which means I can buy smaller clothes, which means I now have a world of stores that I can shop in!!! More like $$$!!! OVERWHELMING!
You’d think it would be easy for me to grab everything in a size 12 and call it a day. It wasn’t. Let me paint you a picture of what is going on in my head.
Am I done losing Weight? Should I keep going? Is there a finish line? When is this finish line? What’s my final and optimal weight for my body? What if I GAIN IT ALL BACK!!???
You see what I mean? Weight loss is a journey, and I am obviously not ready mentally and physically to invest in new clothes. Plus, going through my closet was a sign of how easy it is to buy bigger clothes and hide your problems under the flowy tops and cozy tights.
So, I went to H&M, where I can find reasonably priced fashionable clothes and bought some fun tops to brighten my closet. I bought some motivational J Brand jeans (2 sizes smaller!!) from Vincent that keep me in check. I love them! I pulled out some old clothes that were too small and reacquainted myself with a pair of old trousers that never really fit me. They still don’t fit well.. they are getting lose 😉 I also found an LBD that I can almost zip up! It’s a classic little black dress that I bought 7 years ago and I can’t wait to wear it at my fiends wedding in May! Big strides!
I am creating a series of posts about my transformation, so stay tuned! I’ll be talking about my “closet conundrums”, where I share my tips on how to transition your closet slowly. Also find out how your clothes can tell your story. Stay tuned!